
I had plenty of time to be alone with my thoughts that afternoon at the Petit Trianon. The Queen had gone off on her own to her little grotto, keen to enjoy the rare luxury of solitude and leaving her ladies in waiting to wander about the gardens and gossip in the lovely light filled salon. It was a beautiful day, sunny and bright with a few occasional rain showers that sent the other ladies shrieking and giggling indoors. I had never cared about the rain though and settled myself on the stone steps that led down from the château to the gardens, pulling my soft cashmere shawl close around my shoulders and keeping my purple silk parasol close to hand, just in case.
I breathed a sigh of contentment as I looked around the gardens, enjoying the fresh air, the distant sound of birdsong and the piano music that floated down from one of the open windows behind me. It was a perfect day, a perfect moment. I wandered across the grass to the Belvedere, a small white pavilion beside the lake, which was decorated inside with pretty, fanciful arabesque designs on the walls and a painted sky with clouds on the ceiling.
It was a glorious day, the sun dappled over the marble floor and the only sounds to be heard were bees humming around the last of the fragrant summer roses, birds singing in the trees and the muted sighs of the Queen as she sat in the nearby grotto daydreaming of the handsome Swedish nobleman Axel de Fersen.
I sank down upon the green silk covered sofa that stood in the centre of the pavilion and idly pulled a discarded fashion magazine towards me, the corners of the pages dog eared and torn where they had been turned over. I allowed the magazine to slip from my hand and leaned my head back against the sofa, closing my eyes as I breathed in the fresh autumn air and the voluptuous scent of the flowers that were everywhere at Trianon. It all seemed a million miles away from the troubles in Paris and the stresses of the past few months and suddenly I understood why the Queen was so passionately attached to her little château and loved to spend so much time here, especially since the sad loss of her eldest son, the Dauphin earlier that year.
The honeyed tranquillity of this scene was broken by a shout from the direction of the Trianon and I sprang to my feet, my cashmere shawl falling, forgotten to the floor as one of the Queen’s young pages came running towards the Belvedere. As he ran his hat fell off and he left it behind him, lying forlorn, a black splodge in the middle of the lawn. I saw that he was looking absolutely terrified, his dark eyes wide with fear and with a cry of alarm I lifted up my white silk skirts and ran to meet him.
‘What is it?’ I cried, taking him by the arms as in his panic he fell towards me. ‘What has happened?’
‘Madame la Marquise, we must alert the Queen immediately!’ The boy was sobbing now and clinging to my hands.
‘The women of Paris are marching on Versailles. They will be here in only a few hours. Madame, they mean to kill the Queen and take the rest of the royal family back to Paris!’
I stared at him in uncomprehending horror. ‘Mon dieu, it must be a mistake,’ I breathed, knowing all the while that he spoke the truth and there was no mistake. It was not entirely unexpected after all – it was only due to our own complacent stupidity that everyone had forgotten the very real threat that the people of Paris posed to Versailles. I remembered what Lucien had said to me all those hours ago in the Hall of Mirrors and felt sick. Not everyone had been stupid.
‘There is no mistake, Madame,’ the boy replied, wiping away his tears with the back of his sleeve. All etiquette was forgotten at that moment. ‘Monsieur le Comte de Saint-Priest himself sent me.’
The Comte de Saint-Priest was one of the King’s ministers and much respected at court. ‘I have been instructed to bring the Queen back to Versailles as quickly as possible.’ He scampered alongside me as I turned and ran back, my heart beating painfully in my breast.
We reached the grotto and I turned and put my finger to my lips. ‘You should wait here while I go and get her.’ He looked annoyed at being robbed of his moment of drama but, amidst much grumbling, complied and leaned against a tree while I pushed my way through the overhanging branches to the grotto that lay hidden within. In the distance I could hear the shouts and screams of the other ladies as the news spread and they ran across the lawn towards us.
‘Your Majesty?’ It was gloomy inside and it took a moment for my eyes to adjust to the dim light.
‘Who is that?’ The Queen’s voice rang out imperiously and faintly churlish. ‘I thought that I gave orders not to be disturbed under any circumstances?’ She stepped forward from the darkness, her pale muslin gown shimmering in the green and eerie sunlight that floated through the trees overhead. ‘Well? What is it?’
‘It is Cassandre, the Marquise de Vautière.’ I said took a deep breath. ‘I am sorry, Madame, but you have to return to the palace immediately.’ She had seen me now and I dropped a hasty curtsey. ‘Madame, the people are marching here from Paris.’
‘The people are marching here from Paris?’ she repeated, raising a hand to clutch the fine cashmere shawl that she had wrapped around her shoulders. ‘What do you mean?’ She looked shocked, and peered at me as though she didn’t quite understand what I was saying.
I felt suddenly impatient. ‘Madame, they are coming to Versailles and intend to take you all back with them to the capital.’ I stepped back and held the branches up so that she could walk through. ‘You are in the gravest danger here and must return to the palace where you can be properly guarded.’
A carriage was waiting for us in the courtyard and I stepped aside as one of the footmen helped the Queen inside before clambering in myself, closing the door with a slam behind me.
‘I have forgotten something…’ Marie Antoinette murmured, putting her hand on the gilt door handle.
‘Madame, there is no more time,’ I said. ‘One of the pages can come back for it.’ The carriage sprang away and I leaned back against the soft, upholstered seats, gazing out of the window as we drove out of the gates for what might well be the very last time. I dared to steal just one look at my mistress’ distraught face as we rolled away from the beautiful château that she had adored so much and that had brought her so much happiness and then quickly glanced elsewhere, not wishing to intrude upon her pain and not knowing what to say until she sniffed, wiped away her tears and settled back against the seat, gazing out with disinterest at the tall poplar trees as they rushed past. ‘Why do I have the feeling that I will never see my poor Trianon again?’ she asked in a plaintive tone.
I forced a smile. ‘I am sure that you will be able to return tomorrow, Madame,’ I replied with a confidence that I did not entirely feel. ‘It is bound to be a false alarm.’ I leaned my head against the seat and gazed out at the gardens which were now becoming enveloped in a grey autumnal mist that hung about the tops of the tall trees, my thoughts not with the spoilt woman sitting opposite but with my sister and Adélaïde, both of whom were still in Paris. What was happening there?

It did not take long to reach the main château and the large groups of troops milling about in the Cour d’Armes and Cour Royale made it clear that the ominous news had already spread throughout Versailles. As the Queen’s coach pulled up in the courtyard several liveried royal guards ran forward to surround it as Marie Antoinette and I were helped down and then hustled into the building, through the marble vestibule and up the ornate Queen’s Staircase to her apartment, just as a heavy downpour of rain suddenly began that lashed mercilessly against the windows and sent the troops running for cover.
‘Cassandre?’ I turned my head to see my brother, standing in one of the tall windows of the Queen’s salon. He may have been dressed with his usual exquisite care in a suit of shimmering midnight blue silk with barely a lace or button out of place but I immediately noticed that his handsome face was careworn and anxious. ‘Thank God that you are safe,’ he said quietly, closing his arms around me as I rushed into his embrace. ‘I have been waiting here since I first heard the news.’
‘What is happening, Lucien?’ We moved into the shelter of the window. The rain was still coming down heavily and I wondered about the army of women and how they were coping in the deluge. ‘They must be soaked to the skin,’ I murmured, gazing across the terrace, which was covered with troops, all standing about nervously and giving the appearance of not knowing quite what to do with themselves. In the distance I could see a small group of soldiers trying their best to close the enormous palace gates, which had become rusted to the ground through decades of standing open.
I shivered then, feeling suddenly defenceless and afraid.

We stood for a while in silence, watching the stream of anxious courtiers as they made their way through the Queen’s rooms, pausing every few minutes to plaintively ask every chance acquaintance if there was more news. ‘The King is in a council meeting,’ Lucien remarked at last. ‘His ministers are advising him to withdraw to Rambouillet with his family but he is steadfastly refusing to abandon Versailles.’ He sighed. ‘Our only hope is the Queen. It may be that she will be able to persuade him to leave.’
I stared at him. ‘You really believe that it would be best to run away?’
‘Not run away, no, but I do not think that there is anything to be gained from remaining here at Versailles.’ My brother shrugged and helped himself to some snuff, its sharp cinnamon tang floating through the air.
‘We are at the mercy of the canaille. I am told that there are several hundred women from the poorest faubourgs of Paris marching on the château,’ he said, looking out of the window.’If they manage to get past the guards then we will all be slaughtered.’
I gave a nervous laugh. ‘Surely they are not savages?’ I said. ‘I refuse to believe that they have come all this way just to murder us.’
Lucien raised an eyebrow. ‘My dear, they are telling all and sundry that they are coming for the Queen’s head and I, for one, believe them.’
I gasped and leaned back against the wall, feeling suddenly faint. ‘I do not believe it,’ I whispered. ‘I know that she is hated but I cannot believe that they actually wish to do her harm!’

I left him and went into the Queen’s beautiful, luxurious bedchamber, which was usually so serene and relaxing but which was now filled with terrified courtiers darting here and there, their eyes wild with fear as they chewed over the few scraps of information available as the usually sweetly perfumed air became sharp with the scent of sweat and pure, unadulterated terror. They hovered and buzzed around my mistress, who was seated in a comfortable blue silk upholstered armchair by the huge fireplace and looking very different to how she had looked only an hour earlier.
Gone was the frightened, tearful, lost looking woman of the Trianon and in her place there sat the composed and dignified daughter of an Empress. There was no longer a single of trace of fear in her face and bearing and, like everyone else, I no longer had any doubt that I was in the presence of a Queen. Never before had she looked so regal. Could it be that adversity would be the making of Marie Antoinette?
‘I know that they have come from Paris to demand my head, but I learned from my mother not to fear death.’ Marie Antoinette looked slowly around the assembled courtiers, who fell into a hush at her words. ‘I shall await it with firmness, at the side of my husband.’
There was a flurry of activity as Madame la Princesse de Lamballe and several other ladies fell sobbing loudly to their knees in front of her, kissing her bejewelled hand and professing eternal devotion.
I rolled my eyes and quickly made my way to the side of Aimée de Coigny, who was standing beside the door, looking impossibly beautiful as always and stifling a yawn behind her exquisitely painted fan as she watched the touching spectacle that surrounded the Queen. ‘Any news?’ she asked, with a weary sigh. ‘No one here seems to know what is happening. Perhaps it is all just a false alarm after all.’
I shook my head. ‘I do not think so. I have just spoken to my brother and he told me that the King is being asked to withdraw to his château at Rambouillet but refuses to leave.’
‘Ah,’ Aimée said, barely troubling to lower her voice. ‘And once again the King procrastinates while all around him France falls to pieces.’ She sighed with irritation. ‘I can imagine exactly how it is.’

In silent accord, we linked arms and walked out through the gilded salon next door to the Hall of Mirrors, where most of the court had assembled along with their children and a few of the servants. We were immediately assailed by a crowd of people desperate for any scraps of news but were unable to add much to what was already well known. As we pushed our way through, I heard a whisper that the mob of women had now reached Versailles and had invaded the meetings of the National Assembly, where they were drunkenly causing havoc and loudly demanding to be taken to the King so that they could ask him for bread.
Aimée sighed. ‘I hope that that will be an end to it.’ She smiled at me and shrugged. ‘It is not very likely though is it? Once they have caught the merest whiff of fear, they won’t stop until they see blood.’
After several hours of waiting, the news spread that the King had finally listened to his ministers and the Queen and agreed to leave for the comparative safety of his château at Rambouillet. His carriage had been ordered but it was discovered that the mob had cut the traces and stolen the horses away, making escape impossible. We were all trapped. Now suddenly, people whose only thought in life had been to reside amidst the splendour at Versailles and never leave were desperate to get away and I, to my shame, was amongst them.

Aimée and I could not bear to be still and interspersed our pacing along the crowded gallery with visits to the large, ornately decorated salon de l’Oeuil de Boeuf (so named for the large ‘bull’s eye’ round window set high into the wall) next to the King’s bedroom, where along with a crowd of other courtiers we waited for ministers to leave the royal presence. Everyone was hungry for news but it was frustratingly slow in coming.
We were there when a small group of women picked out from the mob was escorted into the King’s presence to make their demands in person and like everyone else we covered our noses at the smell, stared in horror at how filthy they were and gaped at the horrible rags that they wore, which barely covered their bodies and could have offered very little protection against the elements. It seemed inconceivable that fellow French women could be so destitute in appearance and again I felt a stirring of sympathy for the forces that had brought them here to Versailles.
After this, we made our way through the huge, echoing state rooms to the salon d’Hercules, which had huge arched windows overlooking the rain swept courtyard, beyond which we could see the vast mob of women, baying incoherently and thrusting their hands through the locked gates. It was a terrifying sight and I shivered as I looked down into their twisted, famished faces, their mouths pulled wide open as they screamed and shouted up at the château windows.
Night fell over Versailles and as the footmen and pages walked silently from room to room lighting the tall lily scented wax candles with long tapers, the courtiers kept their vigil, desperate for news and too afraid to return to their rooms. Aimée and I sat on stools in the dimly lit salon de l’Oeuil de Boeuf and ate stale bread rolls brought to us by one of the young château pages, who flitted freely from room to room dispensing food and valuable snippets of gossip.
‘What do you think is going to happen?’ I asked Aimée.
She sighed and looked around at the exhausted, drawn faces of the other courtiers. ‘I don’t know,’ she said at last, swallowing the last morsel of bread. ‘I have never felt so uncertain and it frightens me.’
At that moment the doors swung open and the Marquis de La Fayette strode in alone. He was soaked through to the skin, covered with mud and looked half dead with exhaustion. There was an excited stir of noise and activity at his arrival but he impatiently waved away anyone who approached him and instead went straight to the door of the King’s chamber.
I clutched Aimée’s arm and hardly dared breathe. Had La Fayette come to save us all? The door swung silently open and he vanished inside before it closed with a slam behind him. A collective sigh ran through the room which then erupted into a chorus of conjecture and discussion.
‘I would give anything to know what is being said,’ Aimée remarked. ‘The Queen detests Monsieur le Marquis de La Fayette and will never willingly accept his assistance.’
I sighed and nodded in agreement ‘The Queen places rather too much importance upon who she likes and dislikes,’ I whispered with a disdainful shrug. ‘She should have learnt to be less childish about such matters by now. I am sure that her petty dislikes have already done her great harm.’
Aimée nodded. ‘Just look at what happened with Rohan.’ She winked. ‘If the Queen had not taken one of her dislikes to him then that whole absurd rigmarole with the necklace need never have happened and perhaps, who knows, we wouldn’t be here now.’
The King’s door opened again and Lucien appeared looking pale and exhausted. He ignored everyone else as they crowded around him, clamouring for attention and came straight to me, kissing my hand and leading me into one of the windows, where we could converse with some semblance of privacy. In the distance, I could see the tiny amber lights of the mob’s campfires that blazed on the other side of the gates, while their drunken shouts and rowdy songs floated through the darkness. ‘My darling girl, it looks like the crisis has passed,’ he said in an undertone. ‘La Fayette has brought several thousand troops with him from Paris and has given his personal assurance that the château and its inhabitants will be safe from all harm.’
I gave a little cry then almost sobbed with relief. ‘Thank God,’ I whispered. ‘Oh, thank God.’
Lucien gently touched my cheek. ‘You look exhausted, petite.’ He waved away a group of courtiers who were hovering nearby in the hope of catching some of our conversation. ‘A message has been sent to the Queen. It will hurt her pride to accept help from Monsieur le Marquis de La Fayette but that cannot be helped. Not now. It is too late for such delicacies, I am afraid.’ He took my hand again. ‘Try your best to persuade her to be gracious.’
I laughed, a brittle, alien sound that echoed uneasily in my ears and made the others stare at us. ‘She won’t pay any attention to me.’
Lucien smiled. ‘I know that she can be difficult but try your best.’
I gave Aimée a goodbye hug and walked through the splendid rooms to the Queen’s bedchamber where Marie Antoinette, quiet and clearly under a huge amount of strain was in the middle of being prepared for bed. Her eyes gazed into the distance as her waiting women let down her blonde hair and carefully removed her pearl earrings and diamond bracelets. I stepped forward and with the other ladies in waiting silently went through the slow, comforting motions of the centuries old ritual but we were all aware that there was something different in the sweetly scented air, something that chilled us to the very bone. We looked at each other nervously behind Marie Antoinette’s back and could hardly bring ourselves to meet her usually candid blue gaze. No one spoke and the sense of something coming to an end surrounded us all.
‘That will be all,’ the Queen dismissed us with a fleeting smile and a wave of her hand. ‘I thank you.’ She went to the great canopied bed and without removing her yellow and white silk dressing gown lay down upon the beautiful counterpane with its design of flowers and peacock feathers. ‘I should like to be alone now.’
I went out into the large apple green salon next door to the Queen’s bedroom and sank down with a grateful sigh on a comfortable chair next to the fireplace. I felt utterly drained and was in no great hurry to return through the dark and echoing château staircases and corridors to my own small apartment so I stared for a while into the dying fire and wearily considered that day’s events. It still seemed utterly surreal and inconceivable that we were under siege in such a way.
La Fayette had promised to protect us all but was that really possible? I thought of poor Monsieur de Launey, who had been so horribly decapitated by the mob when the Bastille fell on Lucrèce’s wedding day. They were clearly a law unto themselves. Bloodthirsty and untamed. Was La Fayette man enough to hold them back? I doubted it.
The rain continued to pelt against the windows and this gentle sound along with the glow of the fire finally silenced my racing, confused thoughts and lulled me into sleep. I vaguely heard the Queen’s waiting women tiptoe past at one point to take up their usual stations beside Her Majesty’s door but could not rouse myself enough to speak to them although I heard their chattering as I floated in and out of sleep.

I was rudely awakened several hours later by a loud echoing banging noise and the sound of shouting and screams. For a second I wondered where on earth I was but then realised that I must have accidentally fallen asleep before the fire. The banging and enormous roar of voices came nearer and I sat up in alarm as it became clear that the noise was coming from within the château itself and was getting louder with each passing second.
‘What is it?’ I was still stupefied by sleep and shook my head from side to side in confusion, trying desperately to clear my thoughts. ‘What is happening out there?’
At that instant there was the distinct sound of a shot followed by a terrible scream and the Queen’s two waiting women, Mesdames Auguié and Thibault, sprang into action and ran down the length of the long room to the door at the other end while I sprang up in panic from the chair and followed them, my heart beating loudly in my ears as the shouting came closer and closer. I wondered what the time was but had no idea although the pale blue light that glimmered through the tall windows indicated that it was near dawn.
‘Mon dieu, what is happening?’ Madame Auguié cautiously opened the door to the antechamber. We all held our breath, fearing to be confronted by a terrible mob baying for our blood but the room was empty but for one solitary guardsman who was struggling to barricade the door with only his musket to assist him. His feet were sliding back along the floor as he pushed against the painted and gilded wood with all of his strength.
‘Sauvez la reine!’ he yelled over his shoulder, and I gave a scream of fright when I saw that his face was covered with blood, which dripped onto his once white muslin cravat. ‘They are coming to kill her!’
The mob had somehow gained entrance to the château, made their way up the Queen’s staircase and were now only feet away on the other side of the flimsy door. ‘Go now!’ The guardsman was trying his best to keep the door shut against the oncoming tide but it was a losing battle and we all knew that it was only a matter of time before they got in.
I turned and sped back across the salon to the Queen’s door. ‘Madame! Wake up!’ I hammered on the door, fumbled with the latch, found it and then almost fell into the room. ‘The mob are in the château! They are coming for you!’ Marie Antoinette stared at me and sleepily sat up on the bed, which she had not even troubled to get into. ‘Venez, Madame! We must make haste!’
‘Is this true?’ The Queen pressed one thin hand to her throat and swallowed nervously as she listened to the noise of the angry mob come nearer and nearer. ‘I heard a sound on the terrace beneath my windows. It woke me up.’ She sounded plaintive and faintly aggrieved.
‘Madame, there is no time to be lost!’ I said impatiently, picking up the Queen’s silk and lace dressing gown, which had been cast on to a nearby chair and handing it to her. ‘You must leave immediately!’
The two waiting women ran in and frantically locked the door behind them. ‘Madame! For the love of God get out of bed!’ Madame Thibault shouted, in such a panic that all etiquette was forgotten. ‘They are coming to kill us all!’
Marie Antoinette gasped then and scrambled from the bed. ‘I must go to the King!’ She threw her dressing gown on over her negligée, absent-mindedly picked up some silk stockings, thought better of actually putting them on and ran to the concealed door that led to the secret passage to her petits cabinets and also the King’s rooms. ‘Quickly! Follow me!’
We lifted our cumbersome skirts almost to our knees and ran down the tiny little whitewashed corridor to the door at the end. Marie Antoinette clumsily tried to open it but the handle would not turn. ‘Ciel, it is locked!’ She tried again while the rest of us stared at each other in horror, unable to credit what was happening.
‘Mon dieu, we are trapped!’ The Queen’s voice rose in panic and frantically she began to scream and hammer against the door. ‘Let me out! They are coming to kill me! Please, I beg of you, open the door!’
My heart was in my mouth as I also pounded on the door with all my strength and until my hands smarted with pain. I then tried to force it with my shoulder but it refused to budge. The sound of the mob came closer and closer until they were a loud roar only feet away. They had reached the Queen’s bedchamber and it was only a matter of time before they discovered the little corridor.
‘Hurry! They are almost upon us!’ Tears of fear and frustration ran down my cheeks and I angrily wiped them away with the back of my hand. ‘Please, open the door!’ The crowd were now so close that we could hear the terrible threats that they were shouting against the Queen.
There was the sound of scuffling and miraculously the door opened and we fell into the salon de l’Oeuil de Boeuf to be confronted by a frightened looking footman, his cravat untied and hanging loose around his neck and his wig askew. He had clearly been asleep until our screams awakened him and now had no idea what to do.
Hurriedly, our fingers shaking with fear we locked the door and then ran across the room, now empty and lit only by a few candles and the grey rays of approaching dawn, to the King’s bedchamber. To our consternation it was empty but a sleepy valet was on hand to inform us that the King had been informed of the invasion of the château and had gone in search of his wife. We then had no option but to sit and wait until he returned, Marie Antoinette staring straight ahead and still holding her crumpled stockings in her hands and myself comforting the distraught Madame Thibault who was sobbing and shaking with shock, while in the distance we heard the terrible roaring and screaming of the mob as they destroyed the rooms that we had just left.

The King returned soon afterwards pale and trembling with relief at the sight of his wife. He had in his arms the little Dauphin, who clearly had no idea what was happening and stared at both of his parents in sleepy confusion. ‘Maman, you don’t have any shoes on,’ he observed with a laugh, pointing at the Queen’s bare feet.
‘My darling,’ the King tenderly put the little boy down on a sofa and took his wife in his arms and gently embraced her. Whatever other faults Louis XVI might have as a King and a man, there was no doubting the enormous love that he had for his wife and family. For the first time, I felt almost envious of my mistress. Perhaps she was the lucky one after all?
‘Thank God, thank God,’ Marie Antoinette whispered into his chest, as he clumsily reached up to stroke her unbound and dishevelled fair hair which fell about her shoulders. ‘I thought that I was going to be killed. I thought they were going to hurt me.’
Dawn arose and as the first pink rays of the new day bathed the King’s magnificent crimson and gold bedchamber in sunlight I yawned and pulled my cashmere shawl closer about my shoulders before cautiously reaching up to pat my now collapsed and ruined hair.
‘Maman, I am hungry!’ The little Dauphin piped up in an imperious tone as we all looked at each other in shell-shocked horror, unable to comprehend the events that had taken place that night. He had been extremely patient so far but the hours were dragging and our little traumatised group had been left without sustenance for too long. ‘When will I have my breakfast?’ His lower lip, so clearly inherited from his Hapsburg ancestors pouted dangerously and he looked close to mutiny. He had been happily occupied playing with his sister’s long fair hair but now his gentle plaiting was becoming painful tugs and she was beginning to wince with pain and gently protest.
Marie Antoinette turned back from the window and directed an abstracted gaze upon her son.
‘Soon, chou d’amour.’ She sighed and shrugged her shoulders. ‘When all the people have gone away, then I promise that we shall have breakfast together.’ She touched his blond head for a brief moment then turned away and continued to gaze out of the window at the immense, noisy crowd that had gathered in the courtyard below, which had become a seething mess of humanity in the hours since the intruders had been cast out of the actual building by Lafayette’s brave troops.
‘This is insupportable!’ The King’s obese younger brother, the Comte de Provence paced the length of the room, punching his fist into his other hand. He had dressed in haste and his purple silk coat was stained with grease and wine. ‘This is unbelievable! If I were King…’ He stopped himself while his normally placid sister Élisabeth, ever the mediator in the troubled royal family, reached out and placed a restraining hand on his arm.
Marie Antoinette turned from the window. ‘Yes?’ She raised one eyebrow. ‘If you were King then what?’ She pulled her dressing gown closer and held herself with immense dignity. Her brother in law flushed and could not meet her eye.
The door opened and in walked the King and La Fayette, who looked flushed and mortified, his ears pink beneath his immaculate white powdered wig, because he had fallen asleep and missed all the action and had therefore arrived at the château too late to prevent the invasion. ‘I’m sorry, so sorry…’ he said now to us all.
The King spoke across him. ‘Monsieur le Marquis believes that it might be for the best if I show myself to the people.’ He went without pausing, as if he feared that he might lose his nerve to the windows which led to a small iron balcony, overlooking the courtyard. ‘I must do my duty.’ He kissed his wife’s forehead as he went past her and it was in vain that she caught at his arm and whispered his name.
I held my breath as the King pushed open the window and stepped out alone into the blindingly bright sunshine, half expecting him to be shot dead on the spot. Instead he was greeted with cheers and even a few sparse shouts of ‘Vive le Roi!’, a sound which had not been heard for a long time and which brought a buzz of relief and renewed hope to the room. He bowed and self consciously waved to the mob then returned and immediately his wife and sister threw themselves into his arms with relief.
‘La Reine! La Reine!’ The crowd suddenly roared in their thousands, to the horror of everyone assembled in the room. ‘We want to see the Queen! Send her out on to the balcony where we can see her!’
The Marquis de La Fayette turned to Marie Antoinette, looking just as frightened and uncertain as everyone else. ‘Madame, do you feel able to show yourself?’
The Queen looked at him coldly. ‘But of course.’ She straightened her shoulders proudly, took her children by the hand and looking for all the world as though she was about to take a stroll on the terrace, the most hated woman in all France stepped lightly out on to the balcony.

Everyone in the room held their breath and overcome by the suspense, I dipped my head into my hands and silently prayed while beside me Madame Élisabeth did the same thing . There was terrifying split second of silence before the shouts began again. ‘No children! Sans les enfants!’
The Queen turned and gestured to me, and I rose up from the floor and came shakily forward to took the sobbing Dauphin and Madame Royale by the hand and lead them back into the room. For a brief, breathless instant, I caught a glimpse of the huge crowd, a sea of hostile faces not so far below and gave a shiver of fear, which I quickly hid in case the children noticed and became more frightened. The little Dauphin released my hand and ran straight into the arms of his aunt, who held him close and kissed his forehead, while Madame Royale preferred to quietly hold hands with her father.
All eyes were on the Queen, who stood alone and vulnerable, dressed only in her yellow and white striped dressing gown and with her wavy fair hair loose about her shoulders, in front of the hostile Parisian crowd. A few muskets were raised towards her, but miraculously no shots were fired and for a while there was a breathless hush as she stood before them, her head held proudly erect and her eyes gazing into an uncertain future.
‘Vive la Reine!’ The first lone cry was like a miracle and it was immediately echoed by a multitude of others. Once again the volatile Parisian canaille had changed their minds. They could always change them back again but for now we were all on the same side. ‘Long live the Queen!’ It was a long time since anyone had heard those words uttered with such enthusiasm by the Parisian populace and I saw that there was not a dry eye in the room. Even the Comte de Provence was openly weeping at that moment, daubing his fat tears with a grimy lawn handkerchief.
Her own eyes swimming with tears, Marie Antoinette graciously inclined her head and swept a low curtsey. La Fayette, regretting the slumber that had led to such disaster, now seized his moment and stepped out on the balcony to stand beside her, and to an ecstatic roar from the crowd he took the Queen’s hand in his and lifted it to his lips in a theatrical gesture redolent of a forgotten chivalry.
‘To Paris! To Paris!’ The chanting was universal and impossible to ignore. The Queen and La Fayette came back into the room and immediately all of her careful poise deserted her and she staggered with exhaustion and had to hold on to the gilded gilt back of a chair for support. The Dauphin ran up to her and hugged her knees. ‘Maman, are the noisy people going away now?’
‘Soon, my darling, soon,’ she whispered, lifting him up, kissing his rosy cheeks and hiding her tears in his shoulder so that he would not see her cry.
The King paced up and down the room, scene of so many court dramas over the centuries since it had been the bedchamber of the great Louis XIV. Outside the cries demanding that the King and his family come to Paris continued and he frowned with concentration. Always hesitant, he was uncertain how to act for the best. Should he leave Versailles, perhaps forever or remain? Which action would best ensure the safety of his realm and above all, his family?
‘I have made my decision,’ he said at last, before waving away the ever present La Fayette, going out on to the balcony once more and raising his hands in a plea for silence. ‘My friends,’ he called, ‘I will go to Paris with my wife and children; I entrust what is most precious to me to the love of my good and loyal subjects.’ His words were greeted with enormous cheers while behind him his wife sobbed uncontrollably.
‘We are leaving Versailles,’ she said. ‘I wish to God that we had left last night when we still had the chance – at least then it would have been of our own free will instead of as prisoners.’ At her words a chill fell upon the room.
Afterwards, I walked wearily back to my rooms that overlooked the Rue des Réservoirs, through silent rooms that had once hummed with vibrant, colourful, glamorous life. All the courtiers had given up their vigil and gone to bed, so that now the only sound to be heard was the tap tap tap of my high heeled shoes against the polished parquet. I paused for a moment and looked out of a window, admiring the pink and purple fingers of the dawn as it rose over the château gardens. It was a sight that I had seen many times before, mostly while returning from another gaudy, drunken night at the Paris Opéra ball or a night gambling in Lauzun’s smoky, red damask hung salon but never before had it taken on such a poignancy or appeared so bold or beautiful as it did on that final morning at Versailles.