Archive | August, 2009

M5 suicide

29 Aug

Today was not a good day. Dave was supposed to get the new Snow Leopard OS X in the post but, oh woe, it did not arrive so he bundled the boys into the car and headed off to Bristol to buy another copy. This would have been fine only he broke down on the M5 and then caught up in the drama that ensued after a depressed man climbed over the Avonmouth Bridge and threatened to commit suicide.

Dave was one of the last cars to be allowed over the bridge before the police closed it and he was left there for over four hours with the two boys waiting for a rescue truck that didn’t show up because the phone operative he spoke to sent them to the wrong place! At first he thought it was an accident but then scores of emergency services turned up and tried to talk the man down from the bridge. Apparently they were out in force – who knew that one suicidal person warranted several police cars, unmarked police cars, vans, ambulances and whatnot? Also who knew that one suicidal person requires an entire motorway to be brought to a standstill for the best part of a day, regardless of inconvenience caused to other people?

A massive traffic jam started on the M5, which apparently stretched back for 35 miles by the time Dave was finally picked up with the boys and taken to safety. It was horrendous for everyone though – poor Dave was left standing on the side of the road in the blazing sunshine with no food and drink other than a bottle of water with a four year old and an eleven month old for over four hours, tens of thousands of people were stranded and caught up in the traffic jam for over seven hours and ultimately, the man on the bridge let go and fell to his death after the police failed to persuade him to climb back over.

What a horrible day. Particularly for Dave as the memory of his mother’s suicide is still raw and so being confronted with someone planning to jump from a bridge was just appalling for him. He only saw the person on the way over the bridge and then on the way back home (via three recovery truck change overs!) but apparently they had climbed over the bridge and were crouched down really low by one of the lamps, just out of reach so that the police couldn’t just grab them.

It’s funny, I have read a lot of comments this morning from people saying that people who complained about yesterday’s mess should just be grateful that it wasn’t one of their relatives and how would they feel if it was one of their family members who jumped to their death and ‘ooh, just you wait, I hope no one in your family ever gets depression’? Well, a month ago, it WAS my husband’s mother who did much the same thing and he is STILL pissed off about what happened yesterday. The difference being that my mother in law didn’t involve thousands of people when she chose to take her own life. For those who don’t know – she jumped in the early hours of the morning from the top of the Trenchard Street car park in the centre of Bristol. Don’t ever say that we aren’t lacking in compassion and don’t know what it is like because we DO, oh we SO do but you know what, compassion works both ways and I think we are all entitled to feel just as sorry for those caught up in this mess as the person who inadvertantly caused it (let’s face it – he didn’t ask the police to close the motorway did he?)  just as we are all entitled to feel upset and angry about how it affected us.

All of the boys are tucked up in bed and fast asleep right now so I am trying to work and watching Twilight. I have watched it about ten times now and it still isn’t improving on me. I don’t know if they have a really bad script or if no one can act for toffee. Possibly both.

I only watch it for the bits with Edward Cullen to be honest. Sad but true. It’s not that I think he is hot or anything; I just find him kind of mesmerising.

Oh, who am I kidding? No one that’s who.

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Whitechapel

27 Aug

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As the days begin to shorten and Autumn rushes upon us with its promise of crimson sunsets, foggy evenings and the damp crackle of leaves underfoot, I find my thoughts turning away from Versailles and floating away to Whitechapel and my other big interest, Jack the Ripper.

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Now, I am aware that this is lowering the rather rococo tone of my blog somewhat but hear me out. I don’t know precisely when or why I became fascinated with Jack the Ripper but can definitely state that I was a little Ripperologist in training at just fourteen, possibly thanks to the rather bizarre ‘Hey let’s rather inappropriately celebrate the centenary of a series of really quite ghastly murders’ that occured in late 1988, the high point of which was the rather dreary serial starring Michael Caine and Jane ‘Ubiquitous’ Seymour.

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I’m sure that I was interested long before this though. I distinctly remember visiting relatives in the East End as a little girl and feeling a thrill of excitement when the underground train passed through Whitechapel, pressing my face up against the cold, metallic smelling, dirty window so that I could stare upwards at the grim Victorian buildings that loom over the station.

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Much later on I would get a boyfriend in Wapping and force him to walk with me through horrible Shadwell and up to Whitechapel. We went into the Ten Bells for celebratory gin and as we stood by the door I either felt or imagined a pair of cold hands encircling my waist, even though no one was standing near us. This freaked me out enough to send us back out into the cold, to seek comfort in a curry house in Brick Lane.

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I have spent many happy hours in Whitechapel since then, drinking gin in the gloomy warmth of the Victorian pubs, staggering up the long, still grim streets, soaking up the lively atmosphere and spicy scent of Brick Lane and harassing the Jack the Ripper tours that wend through the damp streets every evening.

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I have been on a couple of Jack the Ripper tours but don’t really need them any more as the streets of Whitechapel are now so familiar to me that sometimes I fly there in my dreams and wander them either as my modern day self or, terrifyingly in Victorian garb where a faceless, dreadful unknown chases me down the cobbled alleyways.

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This is a picture of me standing against the amazing original tile work at the back of the Ten Bells on Commercial Street, where Mary Kelly used to drink. It is a noisy, busy trendy type of place now.

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Of particular fascination is the dreary service road, White’s Row which is sandwiched between a hideous multi storey car park and a row of garages and storage bays. This nasty little street is always empty and eerie at night with the sound of distant revelry fading to nothing as you slowly walking down it, your eyes fixed on the Victorian buildings at the far end. In Victorian times it was the site of Dover Street, which was said to be the worst street in London: a grim, heaving, ugly mass of poverty, want, destitution and misery.

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Number 13 Miller’s Court, the horrible home of Mary Jane Kelly, the Ripper’s last victim was located at the end of a narrow alleyway leading off Dorset Street, just one of hundreds of mean little dwellings rented out to the indigent citizens of the area. You can’t see where Miller’s Court used to stand, other than a slight dip in the pavement edging where the entrance was once located but there is something in the atmosphere of White’s Row, something nasty and wrong that still pervades the air so that even though you can’t see the houses and their unfortunate inhabitants, you can still feel them.

I don’t know why Jack the Ripper fascinates me so much, or indeed is of interest to so many other people. Would he be so interesting if the case was solved, I wonder? There is something about the Ripper that makes amateur Sherlock Holmes of us all as each of us wonder if we will be the one to finally solve the riddle and received the ultimate accolade.

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There is something both romantically compelling and also sinister about the setting too – Victorian London, a city at the height of its Imperial and industrial powers where the gulf between rich and poor has never been greater. We Ripperologists thrill to the imagery of the gas lit cobbled streets with swirls of thick fog, the cries of the flower girls, the rumble of carriages and the garishly dressed, rouged and painted whores who stand on street corners and accost passersby. It might not strictly have been anything like that in real life but I for one am unwilling to relinquish the mental imagery that the mere mention of Jack the Ripper conjurs up in my mind, complete with the swish of his cloak as he vanishes swiftly into the fog.

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Luckily for us, this lush mental imagery has been an inspiration to writers, artists and film makers as well. The most notable example being the amazing graphic novel From Hell by Alan Moore and Eddie Campbell, which is one of the most fabulous, moving and powerful pieces of writing that I have ever encountered. The film version starring Johnny Depp and an excorable Heather Graham is much maligned and criticised but I actually rather enjoy it despite the ridiculous ‘action’ sequences the and bizarrely sanitized appearance and character of Mary Kelly (she was a prostitute, get over it). Mind you I would watch anything with Robbie Coltrane in is so am probably biased.

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Those of us in the UK were also treated to the television series Whitechapel earlier this year, a modern day take on the Ripper murders starring the frankly gorgeous Rupert Penry-Jones with a copycat killer cutting a literal swathe through the dank streets and crack dens of East End London. It could have been a load of schmaltzy, embarrassing nonsense but by employing an edgy soundtrack, flashy editing and a cracking and suspenseful script, it managed to lift itself head and shoulders above most crime drama.

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Thanks to my interest in Jack the Ripper I have enjoyed many, many insalubrious gin, tequila and curry soaked evenings in Whitechapel (special mention here goes to my friend Tish and our drunken competing to ‘touch the pavement’ where the entrance to Miller’s Court once lay and also to Sarah for lying down on the spot that Catherine Eddowes was discovered and arranging herself in the same position whereupon an entire gleeful Jack the Ripper tour group took photographs), a bizarre evening at the cinema on the release night of From Hell, a frankly surreal but highly entertaining visit to the London Dungeon dressed up as a Victorian Prostitute, a couple of weird afternoons spent wandering around a St Patrick’s Catholic cemetery in Leytonstone in search of Mary Kelly’s grave (we reverently placed a bottle of gin there amongst the flowers) and even thrown a couple of amazing ‘Gin and Whores’ fancy dress parties in London. It’s probably not entirely sympathetic or appropriate but I am sure that most other Ripperologists can share much the shame experiences.

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One day I would like to live in Whitechapel, in a lovely Victorian flat with windows that overlook the Jack the Ripper tour route. I want to be able to sit there with my windows flung open and smile to myself as they pause outside and gasp at the tour guides monologue. In the meantime, I visit whenever I can and make the most of the unusual atmosphere.

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If you are interested in reading more about Dorset Street, then I recommend The Worst Street in London by Fiona Rule, which is a study of the area.

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White Stuff wishlist Autumn/Winter

26 Aug

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I really want this necklace and these two dresses from Warehouse:

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Alas no Paris

26 Aug

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I’m feeling a bit despondent today as it looks very likely that we won’t be able to go away this Autumn after all and I won’t be able to start my creative writing course either as it was all dependent on external forces and it doesn’t look like it will all work out as soon as we thought. Ah well. It’s okay; I’m disappointed of course but there is always next year!

On the plus side, Oscar turned eleven months today so just a month to go before his birthday! We know what we are getting him:

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It’s not much but Felix has loads of toys and Oscar doesn’t really need anything! I need to think of a couple of things for Felix and grandparents to get him as well, which is going to be tough as they have so much already.

We are planning to take him to Bristol zoo for the day and then either Giraffe or Wagamama for lunch. He loves balloons so there will be lots of those about the place and I am going to be baking him some special vanilla and chocolate birthday cupcakes as well:

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I’m so excited for him!

Desperate Romantics episode six

25 Aug

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I have to admit that I gave the fifth episode a repeat viewing after reviewing it here, this time with my husband and found it just as embarrassing as those cripplingly awful incidents in my adolescence when I would be innocently watching television with my grandparents only to have a sex scene occur before our startled gaze. I initially considered doing what I used to do back then and pretending that I didn’t know what they were doing but then rejected this notion on the grounds that either he wouldn’t believe me or he would be terribly offended. I therefore resorted to pretending that I wasn’t watching, laughing nervously and talking about the weather in the curiously high pitched voice adopted by the British middle classes when they find themselves in a potentially awkward situation.

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It was with some relief therefore that I noted that the sixth episode of Desperate Romantics had hardly any sex at all so I was able to watch it without any embarrassment whatsoever! Hurrah. However, it also lacked Charles Dickens which was a terrible shame.

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The final installment had a far more morose and gloomy feel than the rest of the series, but the quality of the writing and the flashes of humour remained undiminished, even if they were leavened by a heavy dose of tragedy and woe.

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I don’t want to spoil the final episode for those who are unacquainted with the story of the Pre-Raphaelites (I ruined it for Dave by assuming an unwarranted depth of knowledge about artists in general and Rossetti in particular and am determined not to do so again) but suffice to say that there is misery a plenty in the final episode. Purists are no doubt dismayed by the lack of accuracy but I hardly think it matters as those who are interested will look it up or read a book and find out more and those who aren’t interested will just forget all about it and move on to the next thing.

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I don’t expect Art History students to start producing essays based on the version of events in Desperate Romantics any more than I expect History students to write essays about the Reformation According To The Tudors. It just isn’t going to happen.

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Something wasn’t quite right about this final episode though. It felt rushed and uneasy and unconvincing and is it just me or did the very ending seem to leave things open for a sequel? Is there room for Desperate Romantics Part Two? I think there might be.

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I really need some Pre-Raphaelite posters for the flat!

Louis-Antoine de Saint-Just

25 Aug

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Louis-Antoine-Léon de Saint-Just was born on the 25th August 1767, which makes him 242 years old today. Except he was guillotined alongside Robespierre at the age of 26 on the 28th July 1794.

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Now, I will admit that my interest in Antoine de Saint Just started off as a bit (a BIT?! I carried his picture around in my purse when I was fifteen) of a teenage crush on the handsome, dapper young Jacobin who was cut down at only 26 years of age. Nowadays though I both admire and loathe him for his complete and stoic dedication to the destructive force of the revolutionary terror, which ultimately consumed both him and his closest allies. His speeches are stirring and filled with vivid imagery and he was clearly possessed of great personal bravery. Yet at the same time there is something repulsive, something not quite right about him that makes me feel really uncomfortable.

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Je méprise la poussière qui me compose et qui vous parle; on pourra la persécuter et faire mourir cette poussière. Mais je défie que l’on m’arrache cette vie indépendante que je me suis donnée dans les siècles et dans les cieux. – Louis-Antoine de Saint-Just.

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I would like to write a book about Saint-Just one day, although I suspect a major new biography must be around the corner now that both Robespierre and Danton have had modern reassessments. I have a copy of the Norman Hampson book but it is too dry and not at all to my taste.

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Happy birthday, Saint-Just. Wherever you are.

Monsieur Baby

24 Aug

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Master Baby by Sir William Quiller Orchardson, 1886.

I am trying to write and work but the children are ensuring that I can’t concentrate on anything other than THEM for more than two minutes at a time.

Still on tenterhooks as I don’t know if we are going away this Autumn or if I am going to be starting the creative writing course that I want to do. I am trying not to think about it but the suspense is TERRIBLE. I need to know NOW so that I can start planning things and get all excited or start scheming for next year instead! I don’t like waiting!

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Dieppe, 14th July 1905: Night by John Duncan Fergusson, 1905. It is a bit Whistler like isn’t it?

Beauty from behind

24 Aug

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Princess Victoire of Saxe-Coburg-Gotha (1822-57), painted by Sir Edwin Landseer in 1839.

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